What are yours?
12"x12" Oil on Canvas
Untitled Nightmare series 2
What is gender? What does it mean to be feminine? Masculine? Can someone be a man and also be feminine? What makes someone a man or a woman? What about transgendered people? What does it mean to identify as a femme transmasculine androgynous genderqueer? Do those labels matter? Are those terms contradictory?
I want to do some chalking on campus to ease the idea of a non-binary model of gender. I want to pose simple questions like, "What if gender is more complex than check one: M or F?". I want to be subversive. I want to mean something. Gender is so complex and the binary model of gender forces people to fit into either one box or another. What about people who exist outside of this system? What if someone's gender expression, gender identity, and physical sex don't all match? Why isn't there an option C?
How can we influence real, tangible change? I suggest a revolution in conscious.
"12 Sleeping Seconds Before the Destruction of Conscious"
Sometimes we have to destroy the coping mechanisms and constructs of our mind to get unstuck and find freedom and redemption from ourselves.
There's a light at the end of the path. Sometimes it's hard to push through. Sometimes the world seems exhausting. Sometimes I have to squint and I can barely see that light, barely remember that glimpse that I've seen before. I know that it's real, that it exists. That there is some sum of all of the truths of the world and the fragility and reality of the human experience. This truth, this morality, this idea, this thing that break free and yet encompasses all ambiguity and this thing, this thing is in a way spiritual or philisophical and it is not religious. Human experience might be an ambigious gray, but this is idea and the essense of color itself.
I've been thinking a lot about choice and everything that choice can mean, the ambiguity of choice and if I even like choice as a word. What's the first think that comes to mind to you, when you hear the word choice? How do you define it? Does it matter?
How does being queer shape one's identity? And if the only (and very vague) label that fits is queer, which really only means different from society's norm -- then what on earth does that really even mean? Does it matter?
Signed,
Someone who identifies as queer all around.
I sort of worked through a book called Things Might Go Terribly Horribly Wrong and near the beginning some of the exercises focused on Ambiguity. I definitely have a lot of trouble making decisions sometimes, and the longer the process, the more the ambiguity of the situation stresses me.
2. A lack of decisiveness or commitment resulting from a failure to make a choice between alternatives.
My main website is: http://bleedingtruth.org
